5.30.2010

'Fear syndrome' before the exam...

Gosh...Early in the morning
suddenly woke up and realized that
there is now no more count down for my final exam anymore...
As the exam will be started tomorrow.
I was like ought to study now but then don't know why
I feel very nervous this point of time
as I don't really study all my subjects very well...
can you like feel the burden?
If I fail in this final examination
twenty thousand Ringgit will just fly away
and I have to spend twenty thousand Ringgit more if I retake Law...
In other words...RM40000 I have to spend on this
if I fail the final examination which start from tomorrow.
Well, I know fourty thousand
for certain rich guys that's nothing
it is just like no a big deal for them
so they never worry about this
but for me...it's really a big deal.
I am so nervous now.
I can't even calm down and think properly.
all things just like bomb into my brain
and my head like going to explode.
I don't want to fail.
I don't want to retake.
But now...I can't even hold my pen properly.
I am so scare now...
but I will try my best to go through the exam...
guys, wish me good luck...
I know I have to be confident...right?
May the good luck always be with me.
Once again, I know my English sucks
but at least I give it a try
so stop criticize my grammar
I feel grateful if you want to correct my grammatically mistake
but please if you just intend to embarrass me
please just go away and mind your own business.
just go to be English teacher if you really think your English is good enough
some English expert will help me in my English (Thank you Amelia :) )
and some more this is my business.
Please don't ever step in my world as you are not welcome.
Thank you for your co-operation.

5.23.2010

I'm a DRUNK

迷迷糊糊的过日子
是我最近最佳的写照
剩下一星期了
再不念书的话
就真的等着回家耕田了
靠,为什么这世界上还有这样难懂得东西
我看了很久才明白
哪我要怎样念完啊?
好想好想黄汤入肚
暂且让我稍微的忘却现实的负担
纵然现实仍然会在酒醉过后给自己当头棒喝
至少我醉过
至少我忘过
醉梦人生
或许那才是我喜欢的日子
那是颓废?
那是放纵?
我叫它遗失的美好。
我老实说并不是要为某某张姓台湾女歌手打歌
只是觉得那是很恰当的形容
我疯了...
或者说,我醉了。
旁人曰:还有时间打部落?
吾答之:不写我会死。

5.12.2010

可以抱紧我吗?

我做错了吗?
我真的错了吗?
我其实并不要求什么
我知道有的时候我自己的脾气很不好
但是我懂得什么叫做尝试去改变
因为我知道要长久
迁就和体谅这两个词
是两个人必修的一门课程
我很努力的在学习
怎样去爱人,怎样去做一个你心中完美的那个人
我从来就没有强迫你能为我改变什么
只要你开心,我真的就很开心了
你要我做些什么
我是都会很懒惰的借故推托
但是最后我都会一一完成
因为我知道你会不开心
不要求你改变
只因为你就是这样的一个你
但是有的时候
我真的很难过
其实真的很希望你能在我的言语中
能知道些端倪
能在适当的时候给我一个拥抱
知道我不是自己一个人在演独角戏
我不是一个人在走
我很希望在我觉得孤单无助的时候
有一个人能给我安慰
我对我自己的未来惶恐无助
我觉得自己没有力气在走下去了
是你给我勇气的
因为我说过
希望给你一个无忧的将来
看你微笑,就是我最珍贵的宝藏
今天很难过,无端端的在班上被一些无谓人排挤
真的很希望你能抱抱我,让我的心情多少能抚平
我不是不要陪你做你要做的东西
只是你能不能就让我任性一次
在你的怀中大哭?
我真的很难过,我真的很难受
到底要我怎样做,才能是你心中最完美的一百分?
你曾经问我,会不会有一天感觉到疲累
我现在回答你:
我累死也不会放手。
不过在那之前,请不要擅自松开你的手...
但是似乎发现,无论我的眼泪流多少
都不够那电脑游戏来的吸引你的注意力。